This morning, I had bloodwork done for Estradiol and Progesterone.
“Looks like Wednesday is the big day,” says the lab tech, referring to my beta. “Don’t cheat and test early.”
“I don’t even have any tests at home,” I lied. (Actually, I bought 4 dollar store tests yesterday, just to ‘have around…’).
I don’t know why I lied. I could have just said, “I’ll try not to!”
The thing is, I am very torn. I don’t think I want good OR bad news from a phone call. So, my current plan is: undecided.
On another note, the boy has some sort of stomach bug which is giving me major anxiety. Stomach things are THE WORST. I do NOT want it, and I also hate when he is sick. So now, any cramp, twinge, fatigue, sensation, etc. can DEFINITELY be chalked up to either progesterone or anxiety. No symptom spotting for me (and anyway, I really don’t have any).