On the Cusp


I’m right on the cusp of “too early to POAS” and “realistic to POAS.” This is definitely the most challenging part of the 2WW. Not to mention it’s a rainy weekend and all I have to do is laundry and curriculum writing. Not much to take my mind off of this.

I keep picturing my two little jujubes burrowing in comfy and cozy. My mantra the past few days has been, “hatch and attach!!!” According to the many handy dandy internet resources we all know and love, at 7dp3dt (or 10dpo), implantation either did not happen (boo!!!), or is complete (woohoo!!!).

I am not a POAS-aholic. However, this may be due to the fact that I usually start spotting and know AF is on the way before I get to the point of not being able to wait any longer. Progesterone adds a whole other layer because it will likely keep me from spotting and will not “allow” my period to start. During the past 48 hours, I have googled things like:
— Do you still get PMS while on progesterone?
— Can you still spot while on progesterone? (I had the smallest bit of pink / brown on 5dp3dt).

The results, of course, are inconclusive (which I knew before I looked but had to check anyway). They are inconclusive because PMS can be legit PMS or an early PG symptoms, and spotting can indicate AF or… you guessed it, be an early PG symptom. PMS symptoms = Progesterone symptoms = early PG symptoms. Thanks for that devine plan, universe!

So no matter what you know during the 2WW waiting game, you still know nothing. I am absolutely envious of the women who have only had to endure a few of these, and of course, of the women who didn’t even know they were in a two week wait.

I am firming up the plan, though: I am not waiting for my beta on Wednesday. I will test at home sometime before then. But the questions are when and how?!? I don’t even know if I want R to be with me when I test. If it’s bad news then I want him here, but if it’s good news, I’d like to surprise him somehow. All I know is that I’m definitely holding out for the weekend. So the earliest I will test is Monday 9dp3dt. Bah! Who knows!

Does anyone ever feel like they are jinxing themselves by writing about it? I may go radio silent for the next few days (on my own blog). We shall see.

8 thoughts on “On the Cusp

    • Yes I have to keep reminding myself that if I made it this far, I can make it a few more days. For IVF, different clinics wait different amounts of time to do a first beta (based on what I’ve read online). My beta is exactly 14 days after the egg retrieval. Technically, egg retrieval is your ovulation day. It’s not really a two week wait because the transfer date is either 3-5 days after that (which cuts the two weeks by 3-5 days). Does that make sense? I found the whole process really interesting and exciting (and nerve wracking!!!). Now I’m just hoping beyond all hope for that test to say what I want it to say next week! Good luck with your cycle!

  1. The 2WW is torture. Being on progesterone screws with your mind and body too giving you pregnancy signs, which is so hard. I have had spotting and my period while on progesterone but it often does delay my period too. So, really you have to talk it all with a grain of sand.

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