6dp5dt – Don’t POAS Patrol

I’m caving little by little as the days become more realistic testing days. My original plan was to test at home the day before my beta. I will stick to that – unless the universe throws a really great reason not to, my way.

But nevertheless, the struggle is real. For me, this part (the waiting) is harder than injections, retrievals, daily blood draws… this is the part I do not want to endure again and again. And it is so hard not to test early.

My mom and I have been considering my Grandma Eva, who passed away back when I was in high school, to be sort of like a guardian angel for me during this cycle. Today, when I mentioned wanting to test, my mom went radio silent. Then, suddenly, this photo of my grandmother appeared on my screen, with the message, “This woman wants you to wait!”

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I laughed, teared up a little, and decided that I surely can’t let my a Grandma Eva down. She is looking over me, protecting me, and I’m sure doing whatever she can to help this cycle play out the way it is meant to. I promised myself I will look at this picture whenever I’m feeling weak about testing in the next few days.

My sister’s text was more lighthearted, but equally effective:

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16 thoughts on “6dp5dt – Don’t POAS Patrol

  1. From a former POAS addict to another, I know the wait is tough. It’s worth it to not give yourself anxiety by testing too early… like I did. Or having no clue what your beta range might be. The beta is the ultimate. I will be so proud of you if you can hold out til then! ❤

  2. It is too soon. If implantation has occurred then there still won’t be enough HCG in bloodstream to show up as a positive. I still tested today! Im weak and i hate shocks. Far better to wait.

  3. The struggle is hard. It’s the first thing I think of in the morning when I have a full bladder and want to get up and pee. I’m at day 8.

  4. I feel like this is one of those either/or situations… Either you’re a POAS-er or you aren’t. I was never one to pee on sticks, so it felt like NBD when IVF came along. I don’t really think either is better, it’s all what you do to help manage your emotions. The best thing to do at this point is to stick (ha!) with what you’ve decided and let it go.

    Find a hobby fast!

    • Before IVF, I would usually try to hold off until 11 or 12 days dpo but I never made it that long before spotting and period, so it never was an issue. Last year with my ectopic, I tested when I bled through the progesterone. I guess I’ve never made it this far without bleeding first!!!

  5. I might be the only person who doesn’t mind the wait. This time right now is so perfect- there’s hope and optimism. The actual beta test TERRIFIES me. Which is why I won’t pee on a stick until I’m certain of the outcome.

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