The Difference 2 Weeks Makes

In the past 2 weeks, I have lost my waist line, my boobs have exploded, and I’m getting very nervous to step on a scale again. 

People keep telling me how great I look for 21 weeks, which I do appreciate. (Small victory: still wearing heels to work! Woohoo!) However, I think my pregnancy anxieties are coming true: I am not destined to have a cute defined bump; I am destined to fill out and round off all over. I think I will have my postpartum work cut out for me. 

 

Baby is worth it, of course! I didn’t get it when pregnant women complained about losing their bodies and hating how they looked, but ok… I get it now. I’m thrilled to be here and wouldn’t have it any other way, but I do get it.

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20 Week Scan – Kind of a Bummer

This past weekend, Rob and I took a long weekend in Martha’s Vineyard. It was our first time away since our honeymoon, three years ago. I guess you could call it a babymoon, but it was more like “Use the Pregnancy to Guilt Hubs into Taking a Weekend Off… Moon.”

  

  
It was a beautiful weekend, and what made it even better was the anticipation of the anatomy scan I was scheduled for the day after we got back (today).

This morning, my mom, sister, and I met at the specialist’s office. Here are short hand notes (because it’s a short hand kind of night):

  • ultrasound tech was not warm & fuzzy
  • tech was strict about no video or photo, even though we had been allowed to take both at the NT scan at the same location 
  • baby was facing my insides, which made it difficult for tech to get all measurements
  • in fact, despite our best efforts (sugar, cold water, dancing, loud music, turning side to side), baby would not budge 
  • for an hour and a half, we tried and tried, but baby barely moved
  • tech mentioned that this “worried her” a bit… who says that to a pregnant woman?!?
  • tech checked heartbeat twice once baby wasn’t moving 
  • we got a tiny bit of responsiveness after I ate an amazing hazelnut cookie (or two) – thanks to my sister’s stash!!!
  • baby was giving “rock on” symbol with one hand, which I immediately attributed to baby not having all 5 fingers on that hand, because that’s just how neurotic I am
  • I got chastised several times for not having eaten breakfast before my appointment
  • I was asked if I’m eating regularly and well…Uuuuh hello, I’m +12 pounds right now, which is frightening
  • doc came in and said measurements they were able to record all look good – within 5 days of what was expected (slightly behind)
  • doc said this lack of movement / inability to get all measurements needed happens in approx. 1 in 10 women and baby was probably just comfy and stubborn 
  • I return in 2 weeks to complete the scan since they could not get all of the measurements

Now, in spite of doc telling me repeatedly not to worry, of course I am worried! I am worried because I was starting to feel much more movement a few days ago and have barely felt anything since. Worried because baby was so so mellow today in spite of my best efforts. Worried because of the measurements that are a bit behind.

I know that none of these warrant legit worry – at least not yet – but what can I say. My battle to get this far did not exactly result in a calm and easy going prego. I can’t make apologies for that. I try to keep it in check (and publicly, I do, … for the most part!), but as for what goes on in my already anxiety prone mind, well, I don’t have much control over that. Just praying that the next 2 weeks fly by and that I get some peace of mind at my next visit. 

  
 profile shots of my cute little doodlebug at 20w5d 

20 Weeks

I couldn’t resist posting a photo first thing this morning, but I will do a little more of an update now. 

Honestly, there’s not much to say. Hubs and I are taking a long weekend to Martha’s Vineyard… our first “vacation” in 3 years since our honeymoon. I guess you could call it a ‘babymoon…’ or you could just say he finally felt guilty enough to take a weekend off of work. The weather is going to be iffy, but a weekend away is a weekend away. You won’t hear me complaining!

All in all, I am feeling pretty good. Every three days or so, I am noticing moderately intense cramps on my left side for a few hours in the early evening. They don’t seem to be brought on by anything in particular. If possible, I am getting in to bed when this happens. My anatomy scan is scheduled for Tuesday, so I will mention it to the doctor. Hopefully baby will check out fine and it’s all part of the growing pains process.

Speaking of anatomy scans… I FINALLY GET TO SEE MY DOODLEBUG AGAIN!!! I can not wait. Mom and sister will be joining me and I am so excited to share the experience with them. Of course I am a little anxious because I want everything to look healthy and perfect, but mostly I am just soooo looking forward to catching a glimpse… or 10… of Baby A!!! We will not be finding out the gender. I’m looking forward to hearing it announced in the delivery room. 

That’s really about it. I’m still sleeping pretty well. Have a little shortness of breath and the tiniest amount of indigestion here and there (at least I think that’s what it is?!?). Still feeling little flutters and anticipating the first bigger movements. 

Can’t believe we are at 20 weeks!

 “Whoooaaaa we’re halfway there! Whooooaaaa! Livin’ on a prayer!” 

Half Baked 

  

20 weeks – 7 AM

Maternity pants with pre-prego shirt. The look of the bump so largely depends on what I am wearing at this point. Yesterday I didn’t appear to have any bump at all. Waiting for the infamous “pop,” but fearing I may just be one of those people who looks all around puffy and chubby the whole time! Maybe I should stop eating this coffee roll from Dunkin’ 

<le sigh…>

(But really as long as baby is healthy, I don’t care what I look like on the outside!!!)

19 Weeks

Boring pregnancy = healthy pregnancy = I’ll take it!

This picture makes me realize that I wasn’t as fat as I thought I was before I was pregnant:

  
I find it truly amazing how everything expands and shifts. Even though the “bump” is still questionable depending on what I’m wearing, there is no doubt that my body is changing. I’ve noticed quite a bit of change between weeks 17-19, though I’m still getting quite a bit of “you don’t even look pregnant yet!” I’m pretty sure that will change soon…

For the past two weeks or so, I’ve been cramping, and at times it gets pretty intense to the point that I need to breathe through it. It is mostly on the left side, and though it is not what I imagined round ligament pain to be, I’m guessing that’s what it is. 

I can still sleep on my stomach pretty comfortably if I angle one knee out to the side and put my hand under the opposite hip. When I wake up in the morning, the bump is usually pretty firm and pronounced but once I pee, all bets are off. Speaking of peeing… there’s still quite a bit of that going on, though thankfully not every night!

My appetite seems pretty normal. I am +8 pounds total, which seems a bit alarming to me though as far as I know, it falls within the recommendations for 19 weeks. I’m not eating as healthily as I could but I’m not off the deep end either. 

Last weekend, my parents gave me this adorable onesie. Baby A’s first article of clothing.

  
Mom and I are going crib shopping on Sunday. I just can’t believe I am almost halfway there… It went slow at first, but now time seems to be flying by.

Oooh…!!! And I have definitely felt flutters. Butterflies, top of the roller coaster stuff… so I hope some proper kicks are not too far off!!!

What do I miss?  Alcoholic beverages. Especially now that we are seeing warmer weather.  I’m not ashamed. 

I’m pretty sure Baby is a girl. It feels weird to admit that or to say it out loud, but I am getting definite girl vibes. Even though I was with a 5 year old last weekend who was adamant that it’s a boy named Jack. We are choosing not to find out, so only the big day will tell…!!!

Baby Bargains 

Last Sunday, my parents gifted me this book, as a mommy-to-be gift on Mother’s Day. 

Baby Bargains, by Denise and Alan Fields

  
At first I thought that as someone who gets overwhelmed easily, this book would just induce more unnecessary anxiety. I am the kind of person who hates shopping because I can’t put an outfit together unless I saw it in the display case. To date, shopping and registering for baby has been this daunting task that I keep shoving to the back of my mind. (When the time comes, I will just bring mom with me and she will know what to do…) 

Enter Baby Bargains. I’m only on page 26, but I already feel better armed and educated to start shopping for baby. Contrary to the title, this book is not about finding the least expensive products. It takes safety, quality, and price into consideration and offers lots of options depending on the type of person you are. 

Also, the authors do not accept freebies or discounts from anyone. Everything in the book is based on heir first hand experience with products they paid full retail price for, and customer reviews.

As I mentioned, I am only on page 26 of 590 (!!!), but I am already finding the information helpful, and best yet, I’m actually (dare I say it) getting excited to start the registry! Mom is still coming with me, for sure, but at least now I will have some educated opinions to add to the experience!

A Weird Couple of Days

17w1d today and I almost feel like I’m back in first trimester. 

  • extreme fatigue to the point of not being able to get much done at work
  • the only food that doesn’t trigger a gag reflex right now is Cool Ranch Doritos
  • a jittery/fluttery stomach with an occasional odd ache or pain – sometimes with that “empty” need-to-eat feeling even when I’m feeling bloated or have just eaten something 

Serves me right for bragging about how great I have felt when people ask how I’m doing.  Anyone else experience this after feeling pretty good?!?

17 Weeks

 Here’s a side by side of 14 weeks and 17 weeks (17 weeks today!!!) 

I know bumps tend to pop later for first time moms so I’m really really trying to be patient. I enjoy being able to bend down, shave, tie my shoes, etc. I know there will come a point when I will look back on these early pics and yearn for the days when I still basically had my body. All I am right now is a little thick in the middle. I can also feel my uterus getting higher and harder, which always makes me smile! 

Honestly, there’s hasn’t been much to report, which I guess is good.

  • Energy is back. I’ve been going to the gym 3 x a week and maintaining variety in my workout so I don’t get bored. Treadmill, gentle yoga, toning on the barre, aqua sculpt… anything that doesn’t involve high impact.
  • Boobs are definitely full and sore, and now I know what people mean when they say tender/sore nipples. It isn’t bad but I have a little bit of that going on.
  • Food: It’s been a slow couple of weeks for cravings. Still enjoying my lemonade immensely and just today I had a hankering for a grapefruit. Not craving any healthy proteins and I really should eat some fish at some point, but carbs are still more appealing. 
  • Weight: This one is hard because I’m not entirely sure of my prepregnancy weight and I had put on weight from fertility treatments leading up to it. The first time I weighed myself while pregnant I was 139, and a few days ago I was 144, so we will say net gain +5 pounds. I better be careful because my goal was 20 pounds total, and I don’t even have a proper bump yet. Yikes!)
  • Mood: For the past few days I have been much more impatient, and well, moody, than usual. I find a lot of things (and people) annoying. I roll my eyes a lot. This may or may not be a result of the pregnancy…
  • Sleep: Waking up to pee once a night (this is a new second trimester thing), tryigng to get used to sleeping on my side, which does result in some hip and lower back pain. Stomach sleeping is getting a little harder, mostly for mental reasons – I can feel the hard little bump when I roll onto my stomach and I am afraid to hurt the baby. Sometimes I do a modified stomach sleep with one hand under my left hip and my right knee bent out to the side. This is a common position for me even when I’m not pregnant.

I’m looking forward to (and am nervous for) the anatomy / anomaly scan on June 9. The weekend prior, Rob and I are taking a long weekend in Martha’s Vineyard. I am obviously hoping to look a little more prego by then!

Say ‘YES’ to Maternity Clothes!

I went into Motherhood Maternity today with one purpose: maternity capris for work. Obviously they were running 837 promotions and I left with two hundred dollars worth of stuff. 4 pairs of pants, 3 tops, 5 pairs of undies, and 1 dress. But I do not have buyer’s remorse.

I’m just starting to get more of a belly (which admittedly grows as I eat…), and my regular clothes still fit, but you know what… I’m looking much more adorable in maternity clothes. That’s why they make maternity clothes, folks. No, they are not in my budget, but… oh well, they are now hanging in my closet anyway!

I say, treat yourself to at least a couple pairs of pants and a few tops! So worth it! I swear as soon as I put the clothes on, I looked and felt more pregnant! I will try to post pics as I wear the different things I bought… other than the undies 😉.