15 Weeks

Some notes:

  • Craving: chips with artificial cheese (i.e. Doritos), pickles (cliche, but true…), BLT w/turkey bacon (could literally eat these for every meal, happily), French fries or fried potato in any form, lemonade 
  • Bump: can definitely feel my uterus above my pubic bone, but still no bump 😣 …yeah, yeah, I know… soon enough…
  • doc appointment at 14w5d was uneventful – heard heartbeat (yay💛), but my home Doppler is better than theirs! I guess uneventful is a good thing!
  • still going to acupuncture once a week 
  • Good news: going back to the gym!
  • Looking forward to: celebrating my sister’s birthday this weekend (soon to be Auntie Dara in about 6 months!)
  • Baby Items: furniture for nursery (from my parents’ house) is being delivered tomorrow, and Rob’s parents told us that they are giving us the family heirloom rocking chair from Italy! I’m not quite ready to start the registry or to do any shopping of my own yet.
  • Worries: trying to figure out my long term disability insurance for maternity leave (have been paying into it for 11 years; have no idea what my coverage is or what my policy number is or how to go about figuring it out…)

That’s about it… if I think of anything else worth adding, I will update! 


(It is definitely pouchier and bulgier, but still mostly soft, and in my opinion, does not yet qualify for bump status!!!) Maybe next week?!? 

My Frozen Timeline

I suppose I was a bit “in the dark” about frozen cycles. As soon as I knew for sure that we were doing a freeze all, I typed “how long does a frozen embryo transfer cycle take?” What I found, not surprisingly, is that it depends. Like everything else in the world of fertility, there is really no exact answer.

The thing that is clear, is that it is longer than I originally thought. I am trying to be patient, but the waiting… the waiting… the waaiiiiting. You all understand the waiting.

Here is a partial timeline of my cycle, which obviously does not yet include a date for transfer. However, one of my nurses told me that it is usually about 2 and a half weeks after starting the Estrace. This puts my transfer somewhere around Feb. 2 or 3.


I am currently directing my school musical, and the last two weeks are always crazy, hectic, stressful, emotional, and wonderful. Guess which “two weeks” end up coinciding. #notsurprised #suchismylife
Of course, this is provided all bloods and ultrasounds cooperate with this timeline.

I’m always afraid to take anything for granted with this process, but I am excited that the new year will provide me with a new chance.

In the Nest

Home from retrieval! The staff at the surgical location is getting to know me quite well. LOL.

I was thrilled that my main doctor was there and by a series of circumstances, is the doctor who ended up doing the procedure even though I wasn’t scheduled with him.

3 tries for the IV is becoming pretty standard and we ended up in the back of my hand. I had a very pleasant drift off and wake up from anesthesia today. 🙂 And you know what made it even more pleasant?

15 eggs in the nest. I am thrilled with this result. This is more than twice what was retrieved last cycle. Of course, I am now anxiously awaiting tomorrow’s fertilization report.

On day 3 we should know if we are doing a fresh or freeze all cycle. Right now, I am to proceed as though we are doing a fresh. However, my doctor is pushing for a freeze because he has concerns about hyperstimulation. If enough embryos look strong on day 3, we will convert to frozen transfer in January.

In the mean time, I will get a kick out of thinking about how I’m getting pregnant right now, outside of my body. 😊

Stark White

I am not typically an over-tester. I usually wait until 12dpo (and I usually have my period by then…).

For some reason I tested today, at 9dpo. I didn’t use FMU… and I didn’t wait 4 hours… and I drank things in between. So yes, I know this really cheap internet test isn’t exactly reliable right now, but the stark whiteness of it still makes me sad. I don’t know why I felt the need to test today…


Resolve to Know More about Keeping a Sense of Humor with Infertility

Thanks, @maybemamamcnabb, for this eloquent post! I’m going to picture my husband as a set of drawers from now on… especially when he’s irritating me!!!

Love, Marriage, Still No Baby Carriage

Infertility is tough.

Infertility is stressful.

Infertility is an easy journey to “lose yourself” in.

That is why it is so important to me to keep a sense of humor.  Not a sick, twisted sense of humor, but to be able to laugh at jokes that will lighten a mood after a particularly tough day, or to be able to play with your spouse after a tense conversation or situation.

My husband is a VERY laid-back kind of guy.  Our counselor likens men’s emotions/thought processes to a chest of drawers.  While women are capable of having multiple drawers open at a time, men can have one – and only one – drawer open at a time.

The “I’m hungry, what’s to eat?” drawer.  The “I’m tired and want to zone out to the TV” drawer.  The “I wonder how my wife is feeling and how I can make her feel better” drawer. …

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