20 Week Scan – Kind of a Bummer

This past weekend, Rob and I took a long weekend in Martha’s Vineyard. It was our first time away since our honeymoon, three years ago. I guess you could call it a babymoon, but it was more like “Use the Pregnancy to Guilt Hubs into Taking a Weekend Off… Moon.”


It was a beautiful weekend, and what made it even better was the anticipation of the anatomy scan I was scheduled for the day after we got back (today).

This morning, my mom, sister, and I met at the specialist’s office. Here are short hand notes (because it’s a short hand kind of night):

  • ultrasound tech was not warm & fuzzy
  • tech was strict about no video or photo, even though we had been allowed to take both at the NT scan at the same location 
  • baby was facing my insides, which made it difficult for tech to get all measurements
  • in fact, despite our best efforts (sugar, cold water, dancing, loud music, turning side to side), baby would not budge 
  • for an hour and a half, we tried and tried, but baby barely moved
  • tech mentioned that this “worried her” a bit… who says that to a pregnant woman?!?
  • tech checked heartbeat twice once baby wasn’t moving 
  • we got a tiny bit of responsiveness after I ate an amazing hazelnut cookie (or two) – thanks to my sister’s stash!!!
  • baby was giving “rock on” symbol with one hand, which I immediately attributed to baby not having all 5 fingers on that hand, because that’s just how neurotic I am
  • I got chastised several times for not having eaten breakfast before my appointment
  • I was asked if I’m eating regularly and well…Uuuuh hello, I’m +12 pounds right now, which is frightening
  • doc came in and said measurements they were able to record all look good – within 5 days of what was expected (slightly behind)
  • doc said this lack of movement / inability to get all measurements needed happens in approx. 1 in 10 women and baby was probably just comfy and stubborn 
  • I return in 2 weeks to complete the scan since they could not get all of the measurements

Now, in spite of doc telling me repeatedly not to worry, of course I am worried! I am worried because I was starting to feel much more movement a few days ago and have barely felt anything since. Worried because baby was so so mellow today in spite of my best efforts. Worried because of the measurements that are a bit behind.

I know that none of these warrant legit worry – at least not yet – but what can I say. My battle to get this far did not exactly result in a calm and easy going prego. I can’t make apologies for that. I try to keep it in check (and publicly, I do, … for the most part!), but as for what goes on in my already anxiety prone mind, well, I don’t have much control over that. Just praying that the next 2 weeks fly by and that I get some peace of mind at my next visit. 

 profile shots of my cute little doodlebug at 20w5d