March Rewind

Cycle 3  is going to be a repeat of March, with the early spotting that lasts days and days and finally culminates in the most painful, terrible period ever. Oh, what fun!

I would much rather be pregnant.

Rereading posts and keeping track like this HAS brought a potential pattern to light.  If this every other month spotting / pain pattern continues, that may help a doctor diagnose some potential problems.  I am hoping that between my calendars and this blog, I will be easily diagnosed, if it comes to that…

So today, when the second day of spotting continued, I caved and bought an Ov-Watch.  Check out the website here:

I hope this bizarre little ovulation predicting watch is the extra layer I need to get the timing right.  I hope the problem is as simple as timing...

I hope this bizarre little ovulation predicting watch is the extra layer I need to get the timing right. I hope the problem is as simple as timing…

Basically, this watch measures your secreted chloride ions, which vary at different points in a woman’s cycle.  It is similar to ovulation prediction kits, but without having to pee on a million sticks.  And the watch will tell you your 4 most fertile days — allegedly the 4 days prior to ovulation.  This is similar to some of the newer kits, but I am intrigued by not having to pee a lot to find out if I may or may not ovulate in the next 12-48 hours (we’ve really got this down to a science, haven’t we…).

I also think I am going to bite the bullet and start temping.  I bought a new basal body temp. thermometer (the Walgreens one seemed off to me and I read some not-so-great reviews), so maybe this will help me to understand if and when I am ovulating.

And here I thought having sex and getting pregnant could be fun.  I’m bummed that the period is imminent this month, but I also understand that it is only our third month trying and that is not yet cause for concern.  I remain optimistic that it will happen when it is meant to happen.  I just hope that’s sooner rather than later!!!



Happy Anniversary, Happy Mother’s Day!

Today is my one year anniversary.  ❤

Today is Mother’s Day.

I hope May is our lucky month…

Last month was a total bust in TTC land.  I was upset at first, but the silver lining was not obsessing during my two week wait.  I enjoyed the rest of the month, not worrying too much about caffeine and alcohol intake, and before I knew it, I was starting a new cycle.  Right now, I estimate myself at around 2-3 dpo… but I don’t go crazy with charting or temping, so I don’t know for sure.  I’m REALLY trying to be low key, but we all know how that goes.

I find it really difficult to keep taking my prenatal vitamins, and to keep taking SUPER good care of my body during the times I know that I am not pregnant.  I know that all of these things are healthy for me regardless, but it feels weird to me, almost like a jinx.  If I stop anticipating a pregnancy with vitamins, then I am more likely to find myself pregnant.  If I keep taking the vitamins, the fates look down on me laughing, “Boy, she is really jumping the gun, isn’t she!”  I know this makes NO logical sense, but not many things in my life do.

So I take the vitamins.  I don’t freak out if I miss a day here and there.  My morning coffee is usually decaf, unless I’m desperate.  I abstained from alcoholic beverages on both Friday and Saturday this weekend.  Tonight, I WILL toast my one year anniversary with a glass of champagne.  But that’s all.

Not-so-patiently waiting for May 24.